I know...I jumped the Gun!

I know....I know....I'm jumping ahead some years...but, this i felt need addressing as soon a possible.

How about this, I wanted to try something different...yes, i started relationship a bit backwards...so..i figured, why not...try going into one different..

So,

I explained to this person, who, what I am..and how i got here. My reasons, well, I've been in different relationships with folk...and how about, i expressed to them the internal pain..that I suffer. Does that matter?

NO!

Am I still judged the same way...

YES!

Do I want things to be different?

I thought.....

I figured, when I liked someone...be honest about who I am...

As usual....I often get hurt..

Is this my punishment...

I guess..

I won't really understand my purpose until the day I meet my maker...

Until then....PAIN..PAIN...AND MORE PAIN!