The new bedroom

My new bedroom consisted of; bunk bed, toy box, very own closet, nightstand, and a lamp. Of course, i slept on the top bunk...why? because, I'm exercising my big girl rights...

These started out to be peaceful nights...

As i remember, the first of many visits to my room...my uncle's shadow with folded chair in arm, would reach my doorway first...it began with fondling...gropping....rubbing....kissing...

thinking back on this and trying to described the events makes me nauseated....

but, i choose to get through this. Like i said...it started with those things..

WHAT??

Of course, i didn't like it....and no, i didn't know it was wrong...i never spoke of my nightly visits from my uncle to anyone.

When the molestation started...i believe, he was sixteen..when he began to penetrate me....i believe he was seventeen.

I know...(sighing)..I remember the first night very well....it was very painful and disgusting.

He teared into me and poured white gue inside of me....

i hate it....

don't put that in me....

i don't like how that feels...

get that gue off me....

STOP!!

He never listened..............................................................................

Sadly to say...this happened to me for five more years, i recall almost on a nightly basis.